Magic and Mayhem

Ugh. I should listen to my instincts and not my stupid muses. This happens EVERY time I join a game as Lily! I'm starting to think there is no such thing as a reliable James Potter player.

*sobs*

And, seriously, Severus Snape doesn't KNOW everything, so when are people going to stop playing him as some kind of omnipotent presence.

So close to quitting again, I swear!

So, obviously, I am utterly useless at quitting RP, cause I'm co-modding two games and playing in three. However, I tried to apply for one of my favourites and found that I just didn't have the stomach to even finish the application, so I think I'm going to just stop playing her.

RIP Lily! You were my first muse and I'll always adore you but obviously, this is not the mind for you any more. I think I'm done with Hermione, as well. I never did her justice any way - I'm just not smart enough.

Guess I'm stupid for still letting it hurt me. One day, maybe, I'll think about you and won't want to cry.

I must not role-play. I must not role-play. I must not role-play. I must not role-play. I must not role-play. I must not role-play. I must not role-play. I must not role-play. I must not role-play. I must not role-play. I must not role-play. I must not role-play. I must not role-play. I must not role-play. I must not role-play. I must not role-play. I must not role-play. I must not role-play. I must not role-play. I must not role-play. I must not role-play. I must not role-play. I must not role-play. I must not role-play. I must not role-play. I must not role-play. I must not role-play. I must not role-play. I must not role-play. I must not role-play. I must not role-play. I must not role-play. I must not role-play. I must not role-play. I must not role-play. I must not role-play. I must not role-play. I must not role-play. I must not role-play. I must not role-play. I must not role-play. I must not role-play.

Today was a very successful day. I had a good time at lunch with some friends. Then, I took the girls down to the beach for a bit and even though I wasn't involved in the sandcastle making, I ended up with sand everywhere, even in my bra. After that, I went to the shops and managed to finish my Christmas shopping. Granted, I cheated completely and had a picture taken, of the girls and Santa, which will totally take care of like half the people on my Christmas list.

( Cuteness cut )

I'm thinking about dying my hair again, but I want to wait and see what happens with my Aunty. She's got a tumor on her pancreas and it'll still be 3 week before she can get it operated on. We're all very worried. How much more are we supposed to be able to cope with?

I'm feeling very positive about my decision to quit role-playing. Maybe I'll change my mind down the track, but I'm not selfish enough to keep inflicting my one-dimensional characters on other people. Perhaps I'll just start writing fan-fiction again as a creative outlet. No one has to read them, then.

All in all, a good day without any bad thoughts to taint it. Now, I must cook a meal for my family, then off to the gym for a work out, sand in my bra and all. :P

So, I suck and I'm stupid, because I thought I was helping, but I was just making it worse with my severely deficient attempt at writing.

I'm giving it up.

God, I suck!

I decided to photograph my day. It wasn't very exciting.

( LOTS of pics )

Just got home after a week at my mother-in-laws. I love her, she's so sweet and generous, but she's completely insane! She thinks it's okay to offer me $1000 to lose weight and question me about mine and my daughters bowel movements. Her husband is a strange little man who has serious undiagnosed ADD. I swear, you can be right in front of him talking and he's a million miles away.

Title: Alone
Summary: Life after Fred
Characters/Pairings: George, Angelina
Rating/Warnings: PG
Word Count: 666 - I know, ominous!

( Alone )

So, I'm trying to describe the show the previous quote is from to a friend.

Mel: No, it's called Being Human
Mel: It's about a werewolf, vampire and a ghost living together
Mel: it sounds weird, but it's actually really funny
C: lol yes it does sound very weird
Mel: For example, the vampire just says "I can't believe he's never heard of Laurel and Hardy! Immortality makes me feel so old."

[lack of response prompts me to ask...]

Mel: and you've never heard of Laurel and Hardy, have you?
C: yeah...no

I know werewolves aren't real, so the fact that I'm crying right now is completely illogical, but I've just been watching Being Human and Mitchell, the vampire describes his werewolf friend, George's transformation.

And clearly, I'm a sadist that has to share the pain around.

"He should be dead within 30 seconds. The werewolf heart is about 2/3rds the size of a humans, but in order to shrink, first it has to stop. In other words he has a heart attack. All the internal organs need to be smaller, so while he's having his heart attack, he's having liver and kidney failure, too. And if he stops screaming it's not because the pain has eased(?), his throat, gullet and vocal chords are tearing and reforming; he literally can't make a sound. By now the pituitary gland should be working over time, flooding his body with endorphins to ease some of the pain, but that too has shut down. Anyone else would have died with shock long ago, but it won't kill him; that's the thing I find most remarkable. It drags him through the fire and keeps him alive and even conscious to endure every second. Nothing like this could just evolve. This is the finger print of god; an impossible, lethal curse spread by tooth and claw; victim begets victim begets victim. It's so cruel, it's....perfect."

( Lily Potter )

( James Sirius )

( Helga )

Maybe I worded it completely wrong or maybe someone read it wrong and relayed it incorrectly, like a twisted game of Chinese whispers or something, but the OOC post I made was NOT a personal attack on anyone.

It was merely one person that brought my attention to something about the game, and only because I was really, really looking forward to threading with her and her muse.

Basically, all I wanted was to BEG people to complete threads and journal conversations. I never meant to attack anyone, hurt anyone or cause all this drama.

I feel like I've been apologizing for this ever since I realised that people were taking the post the wrong way. Regardless of how I feel or felt about the game and the lack of activity, my personal feelings towards the players has NOT changed. I may be very angry at a couple of people who I feel have not been entirely honest with me, but that doesn't mean I hate you. I am not that sort or person.

If the mods would still have me I would bring back all of the characters in a heat beat. Leaving the game was never what I wanted, only something I was told was wanted by everyone else.

Posted via Journaler.

( Lily Potter )a

Another busy morning, but finally home again. I picked up my new contacts today and the girl said "Do you need me to mark which ones are which?" to which I replied, "Yes, please," as my eyes are on different prescriptions. There are two places on the box where you could mark L or R, one on the short side and one on the long side. The dozy cow wrote the tiniest R in the very corner of the bottom. Mental!

Also, Miss B said the funniest thing. This morning, when she asked if she could watch TV, I said, no because I think she watches too much and she's been a bit naughty this week. When we pulled into the drive way, she said, "I as a good girl at the shops, wasn't I, Mummy?" and when I said yes, she said, "So, can I watch TV?" I had to stifle my giggle and told her she could watch TV if she went for a sleep, which she did without complaining for a change!

Anyway, it was a very successful morning but I'm looking forward to just chilling out for the rest of the day.

Now, tell me about your day!

Okay, so here's a quick run down of my day.

7.45am Alarm goes off. I turn it off and go back to sleep.
8.06am Miss B wakes me again. I realise that we are going to be running late now, so put her at the kitchen table with a bowl of rice bubbles while I get dressed and then get Niss E dressed too.
8.25am With only minutes before we have to leave or be late for our appointment, I'm trying to find Miss B's tutu, stocking and ballet shoes, to little avail.
8.35 We have to go NOW so I end up grabbing the first thing I can find which happens to be track pants and a t-shirt and throw the kids in the car. Bag containing dance clothes is in the boot. Breath easy and back out of drive-way.
8.36 Pull back into driveway when I realise I have forgotten to bring a jumper or shoes for the baby.
8.39 Thankfully get the closest parking spot to the doctors surgery and hurriedly get kids out of car and run into surgery panting, with 15 seconds to spare for our 8.40 appointment.
8.50am Finally get called into see Doctor.
8.55am Walk out with high blood pressure and a doctors referral for Miss E's paediatrician.
9.10am Realise I haven't eaten breakfast and neither has the baby so pull into a supermarket.
9.35am Walk out of shops with coffee, muffins, a newly bought bottle and some formula, because I left the house without baby supplies.
9.45am Arrive at dancing school. Change Miss B into her dancing clothes in time for her lesson at 10am.
10.15am Finish feeding the baby.
10.25am Pull a misbehaving Miss B out of dance class for not listening to her teacher.
10.35am Arrive at shops.
10.45am Exchange t-shirt bought for Daddy the night before for a larger one and find THE cutest little dress for Miss E.
11am Realise if I don't leave NOW, I'm going to be late for 2nd Doctors Appointment.
11.15am Driving around Joondalup Health Campus looking for a parking spot.
11.25am Finally GET a parking spot.
11.30am Arrive for Doctor's appointment
11.45am Realise I have also forgotten to bring nappies and wipes for baby. Go downstairs to chemist to buy some.
12pm Still waiting to see Doctor.
12.10pm Finally see doctor.
12.25pm Back to the chemist for baby medication.
12.45pm Enter drive-thru at McDonalds for lunch.
1pm Get home in time to meet my mum, still wiping sauce from my face.
1.15pm Get sandwich for Miss B and bottle for Miss E.
1.30pm BACK in the car, this time sans children (woo hoo)
2pm Arrive at optometrists for appointment.
2.30pm Asked to wander around for 1/2 hour to see how new contacts feel.
2.10pm Shop for food for dinner.
3.00pm Arrive back with itchy sore eyes.
3.05pm Asked to try out different set of contacts.
3.15pm Arrive home with food for dinner - iced coffee has leaked all over everything, my car and my floor.
3.30pm Arrive back with much more successful contacts.
3.45pm Lessons on how to put in and take out contacts.
4pm FINALLY arrive home for good. Now, I just have to deal with two very tired little girls.

Totally in love with the new layout courtesy of t_quibbler maker of all my fav icons!

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